Book Review: Redeeming Rhys by Mary E. Palmerin

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Redeeming Rhys by Mary E. Palmerin

Series: Standalone
Published: January 19th 2016 by Self-published
Language: English
Print Length: 160 pages
Genres: Dark, Psychological Thriller, Horror
Target Reader: Adult

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Are people born pure?

Is evil learned, or is it birthed into one’s soul, like a fallen angel who was previously part of graciousness?

Rhys is decayed, black, and bad. He cut distortion out of his life years before, but he let her live; his only way to gain redemption once more.

As his sinful needs blanket him with dread, he seeks penance from the soul he saw as a second chance.

Is absolution too late for Rhys?

**Warning, dark scenes depicted heavily throughout this novel. Read the Author’s disclaimer carefully before proceeding with this title.**



Kalau ada penulis-penulis yang bisa memaksaku baca genre DR-Horror, salah satunya pasti Mary. Ini adalah buku ke-2 yang kubaca dari beliau setelah The Goodbye Man yang fenomenal. Buku ini sudah menjanjikan aura gelap yang intens sejak cover releasenya dan quote-quote kelam di awal tiap chapter.

”One, two, Bad Boy is coming for you.
Three, four, Little Girl it’s too late to lock your door.
Five, six, Bad boy is about to show you sick.
Seven, eight, Bad Boy is gonna filet you like steak.
Nine, ten, never see Momma or Daddy again.”

Kali ini Mary memberikan seorang (anti) hero rupawan yang rusak secara kepribadian, penuh dosa, dan kelakuannya super psikopat. Seorang serial killer. Walaupun jujur Rhys bukan karakter faveku, tapi Mary jelas sudah berhasil membuat karakter yang memorable di antara buku-buku sejenis. Aku tak akan pernah lupa pada Rhys dan kebiasaannya. Terbagi dalam alur maju mundur antara masa kini dan flasback 10 tahun lalu, masa kecil Rhys membuatku patah hati melihat transformasinya. Diantara semua ambang kegilaannya, pria ini cuma punya satu jangkar pada masa lalunya, seorang gadis misterius bernama Wren. Siapa dia? Aku akan membiarkanmu mencari tahu sendiri.

Diceritakan dengan narasi deskriptif yang puitis, aku menyukai pilihan POV orang ke-3 yang Mary pakai. Selain tidak mainstream, POV ini tetap berhasil menggambarkan sisi terdalam dan sepak terjang Rhys secara lebih obyektif. Walau timeline buku ini pendek, tapi dia akan konstan memberimu banyak rahasia, misteri dan kejutan bertubi-tubi yang harus kau temukan sendiri di tiap chapternya. Buku ini mengaduk-aduk dan menampar semua prediksi-prediksiku.

Beberapa adegan gore ekstrim akan menantang kekuatan mata, perut dan jantungmu. Walaupun panas, buku ini juga tidak menawarkan romantisme kisah cinta, karena karakter-karakter di sini tak mengenal hal itu semenjak mereka kecil. Pastikan kau menyetujui warning dari penulis sebelum kau siap membaca banyak tema tabu yang akan mendorongmu sampai ke batasan terkuatmu.

“The angel tried so hard to find peace, but deep down, every time she saw the face of her lover, all she saw was him. Nightmares surged through her veins, for she would never change. He had a piece of her soul.”






Release Blitz + ARC Review & Giveaway: The Goodbye Girl by Mary E. Palmerin & A. Giannoccaro

*** **Graphic content warning including detailed depiction of brutal, bloody acts. Physical and emotional abuse is also apparent throughout this book with graphic sex scenes, both consensual and non-sensual. Reader discretion is highly advised. Not suitable for readers under the age of eighteen or those who are easily offended by the above mentioned acts.**

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The Goodbye Girl (Red Market, #2) by Mary E. Palmerin & A. Giannoccaro

Publication Date: April 18, 2016





The Red Market is where every pound of flesh has a price tag tacked onto it. It is a place where money can buy you everything, even a heart.

Caesar has fallen and a new boss, Mateo, has risen; but he has lost his Lettie Doll and he doesn’t know where to find her. She stole his soul and now he must find someone to replace her. Just like her love, his new power is an illusion. The real force behind the Red Market is about to show her cards and no one wants to play her game.

Mateo and Lettie will both have to fight to find their love, but sometimes it is only found in death. You cannot go through life unnoticed by demise when you play with it every day. Sooner or later, it catches up with you and you lose.

**Graphic content warning. Taboo, violent themes prevalent throughout. Reader discretion is highly advised.***

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First make sure you’ve read the warning from the author before deciding to read this book. Twice!!! Even It has been seven months from the first book and I still couldn’t move on from nightmares and tension created by Mary and Ashleigh. So, what will you get from this second book that will surely challenge your limits?

  • Multiple POV. This book will give you much more than the first book. The shifting between POV was smooth, continuous and didn’t contain scene repetition from the previous.
  • Strong character, memorable and complicated. The power from this both author is how they give a breath for imperfect character who use their own skin for hiding. Hide from their darkest mind. There were some mysterious characters from book #1 made appearance.
  • Dramatic plot and full of surprises. This book give a roller coaster ride with non-stop twist for angst lover.
  • Mixed feeling. This dark duo will play with your nightmares, force to think, and face your fears which you wouldn’t find it with other books.
  • Beautiful happy ending, yet still controversial.

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Dysfunctional empires were made to fall.

I am Caesar. Broken and conflicted. I am a man who gives false goodness to those who crave it. I provide solace to the ones who beg to be saved, giving them the goodbyes they want. But, my quiet little world is about to be shattered by the whispers from heaven and hell.

I am Mateo. Unlovable and unworthy. I am the boy everyone runs from. I keep love close to me in little jars of perfection, reminding me of a thousand goodbyes I never had to say, because I left them before they could leave me.

I am Svetlana. Dirty and Used. Birthed into brutality while still trying to comprehend my version of normal. I am an injured lamb, eaten by filthy wolves day after day. Just as salvation seems like it’s within reach, a goodbye from this awful world is all that I wish for.


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ARC Review + Release Blitz & Excerpt: My Black Hole Heart by A. Giannoccaro

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livembbhMy Black Hole Heart by A. Giannoccaro
Series: Colour #3
Publication Date: December 15th, 2015 by Self-published
Language: English
Print Length: 175 pages
Genres:  Dark romance, Erotica
Target Reader: Adult

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Three Crime Families
One Legacy
One Little Girl

Avery Spillane-Leahy the daughter of two killers, the criminal prodigy of the biggest kingpin in modern time. She is flawless, but only on the outside.

Loss, love and lust can crack even the toughest diamonds.

Inside she is a gaping hole, nothing that gets close is safe from her ruthless blade. She cares for no one, so that no one can wound her. She learned from what Rowan and Callum lost and became an empty vessel unable to be harmed by emotion.

One scorned brother, an old flame and an angel of death dare to come into her world. They will all leave again, some of them in coffins, but they will all go.

The question is what will be left of her?

When the Colours fade and the Grey Madness is gone she is left all alone, a Black Hole Heart with nothing left to lose.

“The root of all suffering is attachment.”


After last book from Colour series finally published, I’m not sure feel relieved or lost. Although Ash has been successfully challenged me to break all my reading limits through this dark romance series, I must admit that My Black hole Heart has the most rough journey than the previous books. I could enjoy it when I can stop thinking and questioning every detail of its aspects, and began to follow where Ash tried to lead me.

I had experience with Ash’ s twisted and complicated characters, but it wasn’t prepared me to meet Avery. This girl is the extreme product from nurtured wrong parenting and three mafia families’ feud. Avery had numbness and loss of empathy with humans and everything around her. She was intelligent, melancholic, and sadistic. Honestly, she’s difficult to understand.

This story has slow paced and unusual multiple POV. We will see the mindset of every character that appears in this book which unfortunately have similarity and filled with twisted mind. I hope Ash gives characteristic differences in each narrative according to each character, that would be an interesting thing. It also kept me guessing who’s the main (anti) hero of this book?

Every character will open the “color” and their deepest identity. All inner restlessness, darkest secrets, and plans will be revealed here. Opponents and allies are very difficult to differentiate between the characters that appear in between. The main conflict is the mafia family drama but the twisted surprise never fails to shock me. After I was broken-heart not find love story here, and after all the challenge I faced inward along this series, I thank Ash gave me a beautiful HEA for Avery.

A beautiful ending, full of surprises, epic and emotionally drained. Thanks for this journey Ash!






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Excerpt from MY BLACK HOLE HEART by A. Giannoccaro

I am a killer. I have been since I was fifteen. My young girl hands curled around the handle of a knife as I filleted a man, his screams are etched into my mind forever. Sticky blood coated my fingers with every slice I made through his flesh. I knew long before that what life had in wait for me, so I never tried to change it. I was born a killer. I didn’t choose it, it chose me. I have a black hole heart that beats nothing but the blood of others.

The saying goes – it takes a village to raise a child. My village was not pretty, they are dark dangerous and deadly. My father Rowan is an assassin. My mother was a murderer too. Both were born from murderous fathers. The other people in the village that raised me are just as bad. Callum, my uncle of sorts, is the kingpin of a criminal empire. He sells drugs, diamonds, weapons, people and death. There are others, none of them are anything other than evil. I am the heir to my father’s murder mill, to Callum’s empire and to this black hole heart that is filled with emptiness. My village is fucked up.

As a result, so am I. Nurture versus nature. My nature is screaming out for something else. I was nurtured to be a killing machine, the queen of a villainous empire and a ghost without a heart. I was nurtured into a beautiful monster, the Hummingbird. Now there’s a fracture in my nature and I don’t know what to do with it. I’m feeling things I have no right to feel.



#1 ~ Colour My Ugly:  My Review • Amazon US • Amazon UK
#2 ~ Monochrome My Madness:  My Review • Amazon US • Amazon UK
#3 ~ My Black Hole Heart: Amazon US • Amazon UK



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Book Review: Colour My Ugly by A. Giannoccaro

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Colour My Ugly by A. Giannoccaro

Series: Colour #1
Published: August 20th 2015 by Self-published
Language: English
Print Length: 283 pages
Genres: Dark Romance
Target Reader: Adult

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A dark tale of love, pain and ultimately sacrifice.

Rowan was born to be a murderer, trained to do nothing but kill. He spends his days hidden in plain sight waiting for the next life he gets to snuff out.
When the name that crosses his desk of death is one he cannot possibly murder, he makes a decision that will alter the course of both their lives forever.

Lauri has been dying at the hand of her husband for eight long years, his lust for revenge and need for her suffering has finally ended. He wants her dead. Her body is broken, scarred and ugly, but it’s her heart and mind that are beyond repair.

When she wakes up dead her whole world changes and she can finally begin living.

Some people are not good, but they can be good for each other.



“Today’s my birthday; I died a year ago today. Well, Ellia died and Lauri was reborn so to say.”

Dari luar kehidupan Ellia tampak seperti trophy wife yang sempurna. Suami bilionernya yang bak prince charming, tampan, kaya, berkuasa dan memperlakukannya penuh perhatian. Tapi dibalik pintu rumah mereka, Renzo menjadikannya sansak hidup dengan kekejaman yang OMG.. kau tak akan bisa bayangkan. Dan puncak dari semua penganiayaan Renzo adalah dia menyewa seorang asassin untuk membantai istrinya sendiri

Rowan, monster rupawan yang sudah mati rasa sejak umur 18 tahun. Dia ketagihan membunuh dan sensasi dominansi dalam seks kasar. Dia mengalami pertentangan batin pertama saat dia mendapatkan job harus membunuh anak mentornya sendiri.

Ini pertama kalinya aku membaca novel dengan karakter yang cukup matang, dan aku menyukainya. Rowan berumur sekitar 43 tahun, 11 tahun lebih tua daripada Ellia. Dari sisi karakter, kisah ini akan memuaskan selera gelap pencinta romance melankolis. Novel ini bercerita dari sudut pandang multiple POV antara Ellia/Laurie dan Rowan yang didominasi narasi penuh kesedihan, angst dan kegalauan. Mereka akan bercerita dengan alur maju mundur yang lambat antara kejadian sekarang dan masa lalu. POV Callum hero buku 2 dan POV Renzo yang penuh intrik, aku super tertarik dengan apa yang menjadi motivasi tindakan kejam pria sosiopath yang satu ini.

Romantisme penculikan mungkin cerita yang mainstream, tapi serahkan topik kepada Ash untuk memberinya nuansa dan twist baru. Maka kau akan mendapatkan kisah intens, penuh dengan twist kejutan tajam yang bikin jantungan dan taburan emosional super mendalam. Yang aku suka dari buku debut ini adalah Ash berani memberikan nuansa gelap yang berbeda dari sebuah kisah penculikan. Bagaimana Ellia bertransformasi menjadi Laurie dan dalam proses dia menyembuhkan luka batinnya dia juga menyelamatkan Rowan.

Tapi ada beberapa hal yang agak mengusikku :

  • Info/fakta diungkapkan berulang-ulang. Misalkan scene X, akan diceritakan dari flashback POV Laurie, POV Rowan, dan kemudian diceritakan lagi dalam sebuah percakapan dengan karakter lain. Dan hal itu terulang beberapa kali.
  • POV Callum aku tidak merasa perlu dibahas sampai sedalam itu. Karena aku sudah baca buku Callum duluan aku tahu cerita itu akan diulang lagi di bukunya sendiri, beberapa kali. Kadang less information is better untuk menjaga calon hero buku selanjutnya tetap misterius dan bikin penasaran.
  • Beberapa plot dalam storyline agak berlubang. Misalnya Rowan yang di gambarkan asassin handal dan pny banyak musuh tapi tidak membuat sistem keamanan selevel Pentagon. Ellie yang dalam tahap “bersembunyi” justru membuka restoran yang terekspos media.
  • Bagian Laurie ingin jadi asassin itu agak out of character dan terlalu ekstrim bagiku. Aku lebih suka dia jadi bagian dunia yang berbeda dari Rowan dan menjadi jangkar penahan pria itu.
  • Semua karakter dibuku ini punya hubungan darah “kekeluargaan” ala mafia yang agak rumit dan hobby melabeli diri. Aku lebih suka label itu ditunjukan dengan perbuatan dan bukan hanya diceritakan. Tapi Ash menjanjikan semua fakta akan dikupas tajam, setajam silet di buku ke-3.

Buku ini jelas foreplay bagi Ash, dia meninggalkan banyak misteri dalam kisah ini. Alternatif endingnya yang anti-mainstream membuatku patah hati berhari-hari. Setiap orang mempunyai warna dalam dirinya. Apakah mereka bisa menunjukan warna asli itu kepada dunia atau mereka hanya menunjukan pelangi dan menyimpan yang gelap didalam pribadi mereka? Tak sabar menunggu bulan Dec untuk mengetahui ending serial ini.








#1 ~ Colour My Ugly:  Amazon US • Amazon UK
#2 ~ Monochrome My Madness:  My Review • Amazon US • Amazon UK
#3 ~ My Black Hole Heart: My Review • Amazon US • Amazon UK

Book Review: Altered State by Ella Dominguez

Warning: This book contains graphic violence, consensual and nonconsensual sex, drug use, abuse, and other taboo subjects and adult subject matter.  Reader discretion is highly advised.
If you are easily offended, then this book is not for you and please do not continue.

Altered State by Ella Dominguez
Series: Standalone
Published: May 27th 2015 by Self-published
Print Length: 202 pages
Genres: Dark Romance, Erotica
Target Reader: Adult

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An erotic psychological thriller. Stand-alone novel.

Warning: Contains detailed sexual encounters & profanity. Intended for readers aged 18+.

Beauty lies in the truth.

A wife with a thirst for revenge desperately trying to save her marriage while hiding in the shadows of her memories… A woman with questionable intentions, a sketchy past and a taste for unavailable men… A husband in love with his wife, a man mesmerized by his mistress, a willing hostage caught between two obsessive women.

A murderer, a liar and a cheater. You think you know which one is which, but nothing is as it seems. After all, everyone wears a mask. Some are just better at hiding the truth than others.

Lies will be exposed. Truths revealed. Blood shed. All in the name of something far more potent than love and much more toxic.



This was my first read from Ella Dominguez. I usually judge book from its cover but now I have to swallow my own words LOL. I was searching for something new dark and twisted story and I remember about this book. BAM! This is gonna be short review and my advice is go blind.

Altered State is a story between Miranda who works at bridal shop and married Zeke; a handsome lawyer. Something’s wrong with their marriage. It was intimacy and romance. Her husband is distancing himself and Miranda’s self-doubt and distrust would threaten their one year marriage. Zeke confused about his marriage with Miranda and then comes Shelby. She came out of nowhere and Zeke agreed with no string attached with this Shelby. She becamse his mistress and it’s only for sex including Zeke’s fantasy and fetishes. But, Zeke always come back to Miranda and make sure that he loves her no matter what. She’s always the one.

A Cheating husband, conventional wife and homewrecker stranger? Like a soap drama. But nope. I mentally take notes about what’s happening but in the end, everything isn’t what I’ve expected. Altered State contains 200 pages that’s enough to mind-fuck your brain. Their sex scenes was quite steamy but not really detailed for my liking. I couldn’t put this down! And the ending… GAH!!! Are u kiddin’ me?